Mask Dance Reflection / My "Heritage"

Something that I have trouble with in this class is feeling a lack of "heritage". And no Doug, I am not being one of those people who thinks they don't have a culture because I know that I do and I know that everyone has their own unique culture. But, upon hearing form fellow classmates and individuals from the literature we have been reading, it has become more and more evident to me how "jealous" and "longing" I am to get to know my own heritage. What came across as shocking to me in Mask Dance was the false consciousness of Karen and the other adoptees - they were purposefully denying their Korean heritage! Yes, I understand that they felt like they were American because they were citizens and grew up there and yes, there are other factors involved that cause one to develop false conciousness. But I can't wrap my head around what it would be like to deny one's own heritage when that is something I really want myself. I would do a lot in order to understand my own personal heritage, or to even know what ethnicity I am (my mom says German, my dad says Swedish... I am a mutt of European ethnicities I guess). But then again, I can not judge the characters from Mask Dance or anyone else that has a similar experience because I am not in their shoes.